Happy 6 months girls !

Time is flying and emotion is still strong.
Every day when I am looking to my daughters, i know that I am a very very luky mum...
I love my new life, and my 2 ladies are simply perfect.

We'll never forget Dr Shivani, SCI Team, and of course our egg donor and wonderful surrogate !

3 generations of women ( my mother, grand mother and sister )

happy twins

Beautiful day !

Smiling Lila

Elisabeth intriguée

Congratulations Brooklin couple :-)

For the birth of your twins !! So happy for you and the new familly of gpa !
Wish you the best and ... The best of course :-D
Have fun, love and happy familly !
Thanks to the Dr Shivani, the team and wonderful surrogate

<3 <3 <3

Happy 1st month girls !

Thank you blokland for the kind words and share our happyness. We are... Only... Happy ! Each day is blessed when I see my girls !
Each time I am looking them I told me Yes ! This is real !

I am also happy for "Brooklyn Couple,  after the stress and sadness of the last few weeks, surrogate are doing well and babies are strong and determined. Congratz guys !

Our little princesses are growing well. One month !! I can believe that time is flying like that ! We change the milk for Elisabeth (NAN-Pro) and keep a short time PRE-NAN for Lila. But Lila is always hungry so I think we'll give PRO very soon. Elisabeth is bigger but more delicate about her stomac. So we made a looooong hug of 1hour after feed ;-)

Yesterday, we sent all files to the city administration to reconize our girls. The administration refered the case to the "prosecutor" ? (I am not sure about the right traduction). And now we juste have to wait for his answer. We hope a positive answer of course... But nothing is done !

So In waiting, I am staying with my beautiful princesses and i enjoy every moment of this indescriptible life !

Wish you the same happyness for all of you in this journey.... It is real ! Really real :-)

Finally ! Wifi is ok !!!!!

We are in Delhi since 3 weeks with our beautiful girls ! They are so nice so beautiful and they are changing so fast !!!!
My husband is go back at home to work and I am staying at the hotel. Fortunately a nurse, "Saptna" help me at night. So I can sleep (with one ear) and be ready at the morning. I am so happy !!! We are really blessed with our 2 princesses ! After so many tentative and failures... what happiness !!!

Elisabeth is growing faster then her sister but she has stomach pain and regurgitate a lot. I am so sad to see her crying ! We are waiting for the meeting with Dr Gupta today this evening !!!

Any pictures for blogland :-)

Day 3

My God... what a torture ! We are waiting for our visas... The only week of the year the indian embassy in brussel are closed 3 days....

We asked for it tuesday and it takes 3 or 4 days to receive it.
D1-Tuesday -> Asking visa
D0-Wednesday -> day off
D2-Thursday -> Day on ! allelua !
D0-Friday -> Day off
D0-Saturday -> Day off "week-end"
D0-Sunday -> Day off "week-end"
D0-Monday -> Day off "easter"
D3-Tuesday -> Day ON
D4-Wednesday -> Day ON

We are planning to pickup visas and run to the airport to jump in the plane !!!!

My god it is sooooo hard.

If anyone actually in Delhi visit the Eden Hospital, dont hesitate to meet our girls. I saw in a picture that one of them are a little problem in her ear... I hope it is nothing !

Courage my girls !!! Mumy and Dady love you so much... We are coming !

Beautiful baby girls !!!

Dear Blog family, we are very proud to present you our 2 beautiful miracles !

Elisabeth Sarah Sohanne
The tiny one - 1k910g

Lila-Grâce Sarah Sohanne
2k120g

The girls are in good health. They are on demand feed and breath by her own. 

Our wonderful surrogate are in bed rest and delivery naturally without C-Section.

We are very very proud and grateful for her. We hope the delivery wasn't so hard for her. :-s

Poor M. Thank you for this incredible gift !!!

The feeling is so incredible.... we are so happy and so frustrated to do not be by her sides.

but I am sure everybody in this blog family knows what is this feeling ! 

We asked our Tourist Visa tuesday and waiting the mail to confirm it ! We hope start to delhi saterday... or next week after easter, tuesday or wednesday...

Time is very long but our miracles are in good hands and health. 

Thank you !

No words........

We would love to greet you as God has blessed you with  two very beautiful and lovely baby girls.

Your little princesses are so cute and We all are so happy for you as you have got the most precious present.

We wish that your 

beautiful angels 

will make all your dreams come true one day and they will add pride and honor to your name.

Please note their details as below:

Twin I

Sex - Female

TOB - 11:40 PM

WT-   1.91 Kg

Date - 25th March, 2013

&

Twin II
Sex - Female

TOB - 11:50 PM

WT- 2.12 Kg

Date - 25th March, 2013

TIC-TAC - 32Weeks and all is going well !

All is going wel !


The scan are not so clear then before... but all is going wel and we are completely happy !

The small one has grown since last scan. They have both the same weight. I wonder if it will be one or two boys ! I am convinced that the bigger is a boy. I dont know why but I know it is completely speculative ;-)

But the fact is that i am so impatient to meet my babies and finally  become a mother after all this years.

Today is my birthday. And each year since the cancer is a year without children. Each year I am sad for my birthday because I remember that time is flying and I will maybe never be a mother.

But today, my birthday of 37 years old, is for me, the best birthday of my life !

Thank you our wonderful surrogate, thank you Dr Shivani and SCI Team and thank you my love to follow me in this wonderful and crazy adventure !!! 

PS : Babies ! I am impatient but stay with your generous "nounou" for some weeks ! ;-) love you so much !

Last trimester !!! 27 weeks

The pressure starts to rise but also happiness ! :-)

Time to finish the list and start the suitcase slowly !

Babies are growing well with a little difference about the weight ; 1kg & 1,2kg.

Only 10 weeks to wait... I am so impatient.

23 Weeks !

23 weeks and everything is going well !

Babies are in good health and our lovely M also ! What asking more ?
I dont know if I am right but they are groing very well !!!!!

I hope they do not weight as their father !!! My husband was 5kg at birth ! Yes !! You can believe it !
So I hope for our lovely M they will be a little bit smaller...

Twins 1 :
23w1d
BDP : 57mm
HC : 216mm
AC : 178mm
FL : 39mm
EFW : 537gms


Twins 2 :
23w2d
BDP : 56mm
HC : 211mm
AC : 180mm
FL : 42mm
EFW : 582gms

Just happy.... !

Have a nice day everyone :)

Completely InLove !

I think I am going crazy ! I cannot stop reading this pictures ! There are so beautiful, so real... My mother and friend are persuaded that we'll have 2 boys. They call me "Lilly and her boysband";-)

My friend says that noses of babies are like my husband'nose ; fine lines and a little bit large :o)
So... what is your advice ? Boys - Girls - or Both ?

For me all is only PERFECT !

Pictures of our babies !

The last pict, at 16 weeks :

Very proud to present you the beautifulest babies of the univers ! Yesss, I am completely objective and realistic ;)

And after fetal reduction, our duo-team at 10 weeks : 

Goodbye little one...  strange mixture of sadness and joy...

DuoTeam seems to enjoy to dance ! Yeah !

Our three mousquetaires at 4 weeks : 

They normally are 18 weeks tomorrow... maybe a new pict ? Cant wait.

Please God let us our beautiful DuoTeam ! They are so big and we love them so much !

Out from hospital ! Yes !!

Just received the e-mail from Neha. Our lovely surrogate is discharged from the hospital.
Bleeding and fever has stopped. FINALLY
What a stress ! 2 weeks of bleeding and one of fever. Poor M. so sorry for her !
I really hope that the fears are over  and she will be fine next 4 months with her little boy.
Very proud and grateful lovely M. !!!!

Keep growing my babies love ! Mumy and dady love you so much.

Nice picture !

I know...

I know, I told that I have to stop the blog.... But I need to talk, to explain.... My husband ask me to stop it but i cant resist ! He's scared about problems we could have to go back at home. But I hope We are 'incognito' enough ;-)

We had a lot of wonderfull news and emotions since ma last blog, we are parents of beautiful twins of 17weeks pregnancy.

Unfortunelaty, our poor surrogate is admited at the hospital since 23th november. Sci team are incredible, we have a feedback every day and they are very comprehensive and support.
Our lovely M is suffering fever and bleeding since 8 days... Poor m, we are so sorry for her !
Doctor told us that she's feeling better day after day and babies are going well. She has no infection, bleeding becomes spotting and fever is 'of and on'....

I am not pessimist... But realist. It's true, sometimes it's happen, sometimes it is not serious but all of us know what is the risk and the issues. The only thing we can do today is hoping and pray to have the best news in the future... My heart is tighted ( english is not my mother language, so I am not sure about the right words, sorry i do in my best) but of course we hope the best, and if not, we have to accept.

So... Wait and see...

Youhouuuuu !!!!!!!!! BFP :)

No words ..... thank you Dr Shivani & Team ! After so many fails.... you are the big winner !

cOnGrAtULaTiOnS...!!!

We would like to inform you that as per our schedule we have done a Beta HCG test for Meena.

We are happy to inform you that her beta value is 732.75, which is excellent.

Please find the attached file for the same.

We would like to congratulate you as you are pregnant now.

We will now do a USG scan for her within a week to check the pregnancy sacs.

Once her scan will be done, we will get back to you at the earliest.

SCI wishing you good luck for this beautiful journey ahead.

I cannot say more ... I am just .... happy ? I dont know if this word is correct ! :o)

The bad news is .... I have to stop the blog :'-(    I am very sorry  for all of followers... for security reasons I have to do it... But I continue to write on a simple "sheet" and I will come back next year. In the meantime I continue to read your story before comeback.  I promis... 

Goodbye to all and good luck to all of you !!

Round 2

We received an e-mail from Doctor Shivani Saturday night at 23h47 local time. That's mean Sunday 4.15 am in Delhi...
I cant imagine her agenda and large amount of work. Thank you Dr Shivani to be so close and keep us informed. That's very important for anxious intendent parents like us.

So... we change of surrogate... Miss M will be our new "nounou", thank you miss M !!!  This time, embryos will be developed to blastocyste stade with an assisted lazer hatching to increase our chances.
So the transfert is planned for 26th and pregnancy test will be on 6th septembre.

What a strong and generous "HappyTeam" to give you life my lovely "boule d'amour" ... you can come... everybody is ready :)

Just wait...

No news about our "boule d'amour" our future "baby love" but a little update...

I received an e-mail at 18th on July from Meg explaining that next embryo transfert are normally on "8-15" august... depending on our very nice surrogate's cycle.

So we're following our life in day to day. Both working a lot, too much I thing... but... In reality, we dont think too much :-)

I'm motivate to work because I know why I'm working and why I wake up every morning. I very like my job, but I'm also working for you my "boule d'amour"... for your beautiful creation, your birth, your futur life... you are not on this earth yet, but already in my heart since so long... I already love you "boule d'amour"...

Reassured !

This morning, I had a appointment with a professor who made search in reproduction. She was very nice and answered to all my questions. She told me that 6 frozen embryos transfert failed is very very normal in Europe. We have to made a difference between 6 shots = 6 egg retrieval and 6 frozen embryos transfert = 1 egg retrieval. She told me also that Indian Doctor are also very very competent in terme of reproduction and have a great experience and good technology. Ok It is not the same case for all doctor but certainly for beautiful Dr Shivani. So it is important for me because today I am not desperate ! I was afraid about the word "NEVER" after 6 fails. "If it could never come..." "If I could not never be a mum", blablabla... Now I keep hope, and I am stay positive ! "Just live" daily and waiting for next shot !

Big Negative !

A big Negative ... we recieved this bad news 3 days ago from SCI team.

My god... I think I am not 36 years old today but 86 ! My name is Mamy today (grandmother in french) ! I am so tired ... We dont want a new negative result.. it is so hard to live after so many failures.
So many tries and attempt and we have a big negative...  but we also have 11 frozen strong embryos. I have to be a MUM ! I dont know when but it will happen !!!!!

Dr Shivani and her team sent us a warm and human e-mail. Thank you for that ! Communication is very very important for all Intended Parents.

Now My love and me are in discussion about next steps !
For me the best way is action. I dont want crying in my bed all the time.. I want a positive and I'll have !
I am a cancer survivor and i am NOT dead !!! But we have to keep our foot on the floor.

We really really would like to choose a second surrogate to increase our chances.
but we have 2 obstacles :
Imagine, 2 surrogates are both pregnant. < We dreaming of twins.. We dont have any problems about 3 or 4 children. ( It will be NOT EASY, but ok, we'll manage it ) >

1_But if both have reductions, C-section, and other problems with surrogates or babies after born, money will really missing... ok this case is very rarely ...
2_And this may become very difficult to obtain passeport for children in a certain part of europe...

Ho my god ! I cannot find the sleep ! I calculate, I think, I guess scenario to take the best decision but really not easy... I will waiting for any answer from SCI and lawyer and after deciding.

One think is really clear... We waiting for a new transfert !

See you.... after any enlightenment ;)

PS : if anyone have statistics and success rate of FET, please tell us. It will help us.